Too early to speak but I can't help noticing that the result of my approach to 2018 is already becoming clear.
In my previous post, I expressed most of my frustrations with the year 2017- that year was indeed a thorn in my flesh. Majority of my decisions came from a place of frustration and short-sightedness, but I later realised that; most situations we have to tackle stem from our own decisions and attitude towards life and all it throws at us.
I felt out of place, struggled with extreme road rage, was constantly appalled by the stench in Lagos State and the epileptic power supply, I was blown away by the blatant wickedness of people and absolute disregard for human lives. In the midst of the storm, I thought to myself, "Maybe I am this overwhelmed because of loneliness. Perhaps if I had a bae *knowing how much of a lover girl I am* my attention will either shift completely or at least I'll have someone to share my frustrations with". So, what I did was choose the best amongst all the degenerates that were hovering around me at the time, harsh right?
Boy did I shoot myself with that decision- going into a relationship for the sake of filling an unexplained void? At this point, my misery knew no bounds. An unfathomable flood of emotions started making way to my physical appearance; my hormones became imbalanced, single threads and I were struggling for the weightiest, my skin became pale and reacted to every single thing, acne found its permanent home on my face… I was an absolute disaster!
Most situations we have to tackle stem from our own decisions and attitude towards life and all it throws at us.
After wallowing in self-pity for a very long while and realising that if I didn't do anything quickly, death will start seeming more attractive to me, I was forced into re-evaluating myself and my priorities. Often times, we make the mistake of dwelling on a bad experience, organising pity parties in the midst of a storm, throwing blames at everything else but ourselves and not learning from our experiences whether good or bad. I was just tired of being tired and needed something good to happen quickly!
You know what I did in 2018 though? I changed and not in the Buhari way!
I mean, I'd still curse out people while driving, and those morons that stand literally in the middle of the expressway waiting for buses while chatting away with fellow morons? I still drive as fast towards them and hit them a bit my side mirror. Then, to my favourite, the ones that cross the expressway even with a pedestrian bridge right above them, I maintain my speed with a straight face and which often results in them yelling Ashawo! But who cares? Na today? The stench of Lagos state still baffles me and the rainy season is here… Lord, have mercy!
My point is, these events now simply entertain me and that desire to just evapourate is completely gone! Well… almost.
We make the mistake dwelling on a bad experience, organising pity parties in the midst of a storm, throwing blames at everything else but ourselves and not learning from our experiences whether good or bad.
The law of attraction now makes more sense to me than it’s ever done. My positive energy is attracting positive vibes all over the place. I’m taking on more adventures, baby girl's skin is glowing like never before, I've added a reasonable amount of weight, finance isn’t looking too bad and the men, uurrrgh! Sit tight, I'll tell you all that's happening in my subsequent posts.
P.S- I wrote this post on the 18th of February and wanted to showcase my glow up, so I tried transferring the images to my laptop but I kept getting errors. I then opened my blogger draft on my phone but the menu icons had no writing on them and I kept tapping every one of them hoping that I’ll finally find the insert button. While doing that, I mistakenly deleted the post. There was no verification message to ascertain if I indeed wanted the draft deleted and I wonder why the hell that is the case. Super disappointed in you Blogger, I lost a very good post and can't retrieve it!